Find me Here
Speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That’s leading me
To the place
where I find peace, again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light, to my soul.
You are my purpose, you’re everything.

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won’t let me fall.
You still my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you’re all I want, you’re all I need
You’re everything, everything
You’re all I want, you’re all I need
You’re everything, everything.
You’re all I want, you’re all I need.
You’re everything, everything
You’re all I want, you’re all I need.
You’re everything, everything.

Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.

Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.

Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.

Painful moments, TRUST GOD.

Every moment, THANK GOD!

Beside telco, maybe my other deep interest will be architecture and building design. I always amazed by skyscrapers building like Taipei 101 which has a gigantic 660 tons stabilizer ball on the peak level:

or any weird design like Bird’s Nest stadium in China:

But I think it’s useless how tremendeous the design or the shape of the building is, if it just symbolize human’s prestige without consider the ‘Green’ spirit of environmental aspect. That’s why lately, we often to hear the so-called Green Building. And how they made these green building is very very awesome….

So many aspects to be calculated, or brilliant ideas for environmental purpose are done to made a green skyscraper such as Hears Tower on New York:

I’ll write more about green building, but before that.. I have to do a little research about these Green Buildings. And one more thing.. most of green building’s pre-design are rejected to be implemented since Green Building usually cost 10-15% more than usual building with the same dimension.

OK, let me see a couple episodes of Friends first…

How many cars are exist in our planet nowadays??

560 millions cars, and counting.. with a rate of 40 millions per year. Proton, Malaysia’s national brand, set a target of 150 thousands unit for this year. With a supporting infrastructure as large as 5 millions hectares in Tanjung Malim, and huge number of mechanical assembling robots (largest in south east asia), Proton even made its own litte town: Proton City.

The city completed with its own university, schools, and other public infrastructure to support life of 2000 people, which most dominant are, of course, Proton’s employee..

Got this great posting from ericsson’s blog, and I think those are relevant for all workers, not just for engineers. Very nice, son.

Signs of inexperienced engineer:

1. Doesn’t do continuous study. Does job based on previous experiences only.

2. Doesn’t have problem analysis capability. Cannot grasp the “point”.

3. Cannot assist the growth of other unskilled engineer.

4. Doesn’t pay good attention on product. Doesn’t pay good attention on field condition.

5. Compromise easily.

6. Cannot determine whether development requirement for a technology is high or low.

7. Creates product based on specification without having interest in why it must be based on the specification.

8. Doesn’t show effort to get outside information.

9. Doesn’t listen to other people’s opinion. Not cooperative.

10. Always make up excuses.

If you have just 3 of them, then you are still “green”.

So, am I green? 4 out of 10, men. I think I’m ‘yellow’

Picture yourself as a blind person. Try to close your eyes for 5 minutes. And then try to do your daily activities with your eyes closed. Very hard isn’t it? Especially, we are normal person who simulate that blindness condition. Without any intention to disrespect any handicapped people, I would say that it will be easier for they who are blind since they were born, to live their life, rather than normal peoples who suddenly become unable to see.

Now imagine if a city where we live in, affected with a sudden blindness-epidemic. People , who are doing their chores, suddenly only see total white lights. Yes, not a dark-black blindness. But ‘white’ blind instead. Taxi driver which is driving the cab, or policeman in chasing of a burglar, suddenly can’t see. Could you imagine how chaotic that city will be?

For control and preventive action, let say that the government evacuate and quarantine all the epidemic victims into a quarantine zone, but with one condition.. no normal people will take care of them. Hundreds of blindman should take care of themselves. Yes, meals will be provided for them every morning/afternoon/evening, but they will take the foods by themselves from a shelter. Could you imagine how will they measure and divide the allocation of the foods, for hundreds of blindman, by themselves who can’t even count the amount of the meals?

I won’t discuss deeper details of the condition, you could describe by yourself. But this is what Jose Saramago, author of ‘Blindness’, has in his minds.

Reading half of the book makes me realize already, that sometimes, we often act like a blind person. We pretend unable to see other people’s trouble. We often consider our matters as the most important things to be concerned of, and other people’s as nothing significant to ours.

No wonder we live in a chaotic life. Not only our eyes that not sensitive to our surrounding’s matters. But also our heart that, often, blind.

Just sent collective ‘Iedul Fitri’ SMS to some colleagues and friends. And since I’m not good on making greetings SMS, I used Tri’s SMS as my template wkekwek.

After sending those SMSs, I move on to my routine ritual that consume so much energy… ‘checking Friendster’ . Hey, need to extra-concentrate reading those bulletin boards, guys!!

And guess, what made me shock.. I saw updated profile of my marine-look-alike-old-buddy.. something related to his status . He is ‘in a relationship’!! wkewekwek.. Feeling suspicious (I assume my friend here already stress and desperate, so try to convince himself about his imaginary ‘Susan’ by put this new status), I called him.

Instantly, I had an idea to making fun of him . He answered the phone, and I said:

“Good morning, may I speak to Mr. ***** ******??”

“Yes, it’s me”

“I’m from Bank Mandiri. Calling you about your overdue loan, Sir.”

“What loan?”

“Your KPR loan, Mr. ****. I hope you’ll, soon, able to paid off your obligation. The amount you should paid, by this week, is 52 million rupiahs.”

“WHAT????”

I thought that frightened-expression was enough, so I cut the crap. I couldn’t bear to laugh, then..

We continue to chat about our jobs. Then.. I’m the one who quite surprised, heard about his plan to work overseas. Wow.. that is very great men! Hope you could give your best in your future company .

After hang up the call, it makes me thinking.. “am I a kind of person that very slow on pursuing my dreams??” Hm… I hope not.

There is a saying that I always remember: “when you already in a ‘comfort-zone’ of your company, then you better watch out and start to find new challenges”.

Taking a nice, quite nap, I was awaken by Poti’s call. Thanks to the call, my 2 hours sleep ended with a conversation about how boring this holiday is. Yeah… very boring indeed, to be inprison at home while actually I could meet Tri to watch movies, or play with my friends, sipping coffee. Mmm…

Anyway, after calling Tri (she’s working .. how come Frisian Flag doesn’t give company holidays like other normal company), I watch television.

‘Browsing’ and looking channel by channel, I notice that foreign TV broadcaster/provider has similar trend with local Indonesian TV. They all show serials with typical theme. Let say.. themes like ‘life in hospital’ (House, Grey’s Anatomy, and I remember the old school ‘ER’ series), or reality shows such as Contender, Bad Girls Club, and the one which very popular, Amazing Race. The shows are very typical, aren’t they?

And one topic that very eye-catching, notably after appearance of legendary CSI (Crime Scene Investigation) in Oct 2000, is about crime or detective’s analysis on finding the suspects. There are so many of them: Numb3rs, CSI:Miami, CSI: New York (and hopefully, they’ll make CSI:Bali), Criminal’s Mind, In Plain Sight, and others that I bet you can mention 3 more serials, at least.

And we always thought, only Indonesia’s local sinetron that has tendencies to show look-alike, similar topic serials. Hmm…  it makes me thinking maybe there are also Punjabi’s family member in America..

Punjabi: King of Indonesia’s Sinetron, maybe Indonesia’s most influential person (yeah.. not the president) which shape Indonesian’s degenerate mentality with his completely meaningless, inproper-to-watch, very very idiotic shows, Punjabi’s Sinetron.

Well, it’s been months since I write my last posting. Here I am sitting on my couch, listening to the Zep’s Jamaicah (D’yer M’ker actually… )

…. (10 minutes has rolled by) and now the music is changing to Norah’s ‘one flight down’

Bonyok (bokap and nyokap) are having a trip. So I’m all alone at home. Feel lonely, missing my Tri, hungry, and definitely feeling very hot (jakarta = hell’s kitchen)…

Contemplate the last 2 years of my life, I realize how very lucky I am now. Having a job in a company that I always wish for, having a family that so supportive and always back me up, and also… having my Tri as my partner in crime, as my sharing-partner . So grateful for your bless, Lord.

Maybe some of you recognize the title above is actually discovery channel’s slogan, ‘the world is just awesome’. Pretty appropriate, in my opinion. Well, though we often confronted with an uncomfotable, stressfull, like-hell situation, we should admit that He always gives us what we need, always take care of us.

As a Liverpudlian, I always remember lyrics of Liverpool’s anthem. A song titled as ‘You’ll never walk alone’, a gospel song it is.

When you walk through a storm hold your head up high
And don’t be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho’ your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you’ll never walk alone,
You’ll never, ever walk alone.

Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you’ll never walk alone,
You’ll never, ever walk alone.

Live your life gracefully, mates. Just like the old book said, ‘whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men’.